bliss-sad's Diaryland Diary

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My birthday is in a couple weeks. 34 this year.

I remember thinking that was old.

I almost wrote that I expected to be better, to be doing more, but that's not true. Until about a decade ago, I just kind of assumed I'd be dead. As it is, I'm proud of myself. I'm proud of who I've become, what I'm doing, who I am.

My marriage, my friends, my family, my career, my home, my life--all of it--is beyond anything I could have hoped for when I was young and sad.

I'm still sad, and that makes it hard to see exactly how fucking lucky I am.

If you told me 20 years ago when I started this diary that I would be here, I'd be shocked.

And proud.

4:50 p.m. - 03.29.23

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